i'm fed up with alot right now. i don't know what's wrong with me i miss music i miss... simplicity but i love the complications that my life has. maybe i'm just moody i don't know one things for sure i need a change.. i'm sick of looking at this face... and i don't mean his. jack
i'm so fucken frustrated right now.. i don't know what's wrong with me but i know something has got to change. my happy home life has turned to shit thanks to my backstabbing roomate... i can't wait till we have our own house. i can't wait till you realize your friends are just trying to bring you down. they see you doing good and they don't like it.. i guess my so-called best friend is doing the same. i don't know what to think anymore. i just want us to be crazy happy again.i swear why are relationships so fucken hard? why must i love you so much that i feel like i can't live with out you my darling husband? i wish i could close my eyes and get past these hard times and just be back to being insanly happy. i know we will past all this bullshit i just hope it's soon
well where do i start, alot has changed first and for most i've been datting this amazing guy and for once i'm not afraid of the commitment nor afraid to be close. he has 2 girls and to be honest we fit well as a little family there has been lots of talk of marrige for the future, it's crazy that i'm even considering that, but it's the kind i want that kind that we don't have to go to court or church just between eachother and i love it. i'm so happy with my little family it's amazing how it went from a family of 2 to a family of 5 haha but i'm happy with it. niko is so happy too. life is good, i've lost a little weight not anything too drastic but enough to get me into my skinny jeans and motivate me to loose some more. here's some pics for your viewing pleasure. much love to you all. jack
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tomorrow i start detoxing i will be using my journal only for updating how the progress is going it's sad to say i'm almost hitting 190 err i'm so sad at all the weight i have gained, i will be detoxing for 1 wk if i can do 2 i will then i will starting eatting better from then on out this will be very hard for me since i love food but i will try my hardest not to give up. i don't not want any comments on how this will not work and how i'm stupid for trying it, personaly i don't give a fuck what you think.. unless it's comments of encouragment then by all means send away.
Have you any idea What it's like to be me Watching you succeed and move forward All my wasted time, tensing in anticipation My thought process Full grown and worthless
Safe when nobody is in your heart now Take everything you can get your hands on Save me save me from this yearning yet again
I have become what I always knew I have become what I always knew Every salvageable breath choked off in fear I am the last thing I'll ever expect from me
Safe when nobody is in your heart now Take everything you can get your hands on Save me save me from this yearning yet again
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